Monday, May 4, 2009

Pulling Weeds

My apologies for falling off the the blog wagon. Rest assured it has not just been this blog, but my personal one as well. I have been doing a Bible study titled, "No Other Gods", by Kelly Minter. Let's just say I have been convicted in some major ways. I have been struggling with some empty feelings for several months. Feelings of loneliness and confusion. I asked The Lord to show me why. Why this sense of unrest and of all things...loneliness? Really? I am surrounded by family and friends daily. And surely a house full of crying, tantrums and screaming are not something that lends itself to emptiness. Except the fact that all of it takes away from my relationship with God. He has painfully shown me all the things I put before Him. Some of the things are actual things (TV, blogs, etc.) Others are relationships. Relationships that are not bad. They are in fact, good and necessary. However, all that I pour into them are taking away from my time with the Lord. Therefore, they are feeling pretty empty in and of themselves. Funny enough, the way to remedy all of this is simply to work on my relationship with Him. Just spending time with him. Such a "duh" concept, I know. But friends, I struggle with this simple concept and always have.

All of this to say, I am getting back. I have identified what has taken my time and I want to unselfishly give that time back to the Father. I have to! Otherwise, I will miss out on the blessings He has for me!